I have a tendency to always say this when someone apologizes to me. even when it’s not okay, i still say it. Why? Because I don’t want to push the situation any further. I don’t want to make it worse than it has to be. But you know what? It’s not okay. What you did, it’s not okay and I’m not going to pretend that it is anymore. I know that sometimes it’s best to forgive and forget but sometimes, maybe it’s best to just forget.
Letting go has been hard. Because I thought that giving all my moments away to the hands of the past would leave me vulnerable. I thought it would leave my own hands empty.
Go ahead, text him first - he might be checking his phone, waiting for you. Stare into the eyes of the guy you like - memorize the color. Turn on your iPod and run as far as you can. Say hi to a stranger - you never know what they’ll become for you. Have a mental health day - you know you need it. Don’t go on facebook for a day and see what you can accomplish. Give money to a charity, your good karma will come around eventually. Sneak out, you might get caught, but it’ll be 100% worth it. Tell that one person that you like them, what’s the worst that can happen? He doesn’t like you back? Then he doesn’t deserve you anyways, right? Treat yourself to something indulgent, you deserve it. Smile at a stranger, it could make their day. Wink, it’s sexy and makes you feel confident. After all, you are pretty hot. Go for somebody who is totally wrong for you, they may not be totally wrong after all. Stand up for yourself, because if you don’t, who will. Moral of the story is, YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE.
I think everyone at some point, goes through that one moment where they think “my God, I can’t do this”. But you know what? You can. No matter how close you are to the edge, no matter how badly you feel like giving up, or think it’s best to do so rather than have to put up with the pain - don’t. Don’t lose hope that things will get better. Don’t give up, because there is someone out there who will make you smile in a way no one else ever could. Keep that glimmer of hope alive in your heart, because someone is out there searching for your smile. So wipe your tears and keep your head held high.
of course you’re going to get your heart broken. and it isn’t just going to happen once, but a lot. that’s just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. then you can handle it better next time. you may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. and you’ll be a stronger person because of it. then one day someone will come along, and it’ll all pay off. and no one will ever break your heart again.
You have options. You can either continue to be miserable or you can just stop being angry at everyone and accept the way things are. Allow yourself to live.
I’m not sure about much and I always struggle to explain the way I feel. I don’t open up to anyone and I keep my heart locked away. But somehow you made it leap out of my chest. Somehow you get me to tell you my deepest, darkest secrets. And somehow I might have fallen in love with you.
Love, I’ve come to understand, is more than three words muttered before bedtime. Love is sustained by actions, a pattern of devotion in things we do for each other every day.
fall in love with someone who promises to make you laugh, fall in love with the constant feeling of being anchored to someone who makes the crash of the waves bearable, someone who makes you stronger. fall in love with someone who tells you that if they fall asleep waiting for you to call, they’ll call you in the morning - but not too early. be in love with something greater than the both of you that defies your superstitions. be in the arms of someone you can call your lover, someone that completes your heart. be with someone who lets you be wrong and wades in the mistakes with you. fall in love and write down in your diaries, “we made it through.” knowing there is more good things to come. but most of all, hold on to that love with clenched fists and a willing heart.
Because the truth is, life isn’t meant to be easy. Life will always get you down. What you’ve gotta do is, you’ve got to pick yourself up and see you deserve better. You don’t deserve to be living (barely living) like this. Stop looking to the past, because really, the past is shit and painful and looking back will only make things worse. You have to get up, and you have to look forward. Just keep moving forward, just keep going. And it’s okay to be sad, you just have to make sure the sadness doesn’t take over your life. You just have to keep moving forward until you’re happy again. And whoever gets you down, whoever makes you sad…fuck, get these people out of your life, right now.
You can do anything you want with your life, choose to do something amazing. Just don’t give up, okay? Because someone out there feels the same way you do right now. Because this is life, and it’s not supposed to be easy or perfect. Because even if it was we’d still have something to complain about. So just hang in there, whatever’s going wrong will eventually go right. Whether it’s friends, family, or boys. Nothing will ever be damaged forever. Like they say, in the end you will be happy and if you’re not happy, well then, it’s not the end. Stay strong.
Do you ever sit and think, what if? What if you had never said the first hello, or what if our paths never crossed? What if you kept your mouth shut and just let things pass? What if you had just five more minutes? What if you could turn back time and make it all stand still? Where would your life be? Better? Worse? Less confused? More confused? Happier? Sadder? Just, what if?
Maybe your first love is the one that sticks with you because it’s the only person who will ever receive all of you. After that, you learn better. But most of all, no matter what, a piece of you forever remains left behind in the heart of the one you loved - a piece no future lover could ever get, no matter what. That piece holds innocence - the belief that love really can last forever. It holds friendship and pain, trial and error, that one kiss you’ll never forget and that night under the stars that you can never get back. It holds youth and everything you thought love could be. Everything that was proven wrong.
I feel so powerless. I’ve got to stop it somehow. Oh come on, what can I do? Why’s it happening? How’s it happening without me? Why’s it happening? How’s it happening that he feels it without me?
